I wandered off the healing path I found last year. My thoughts had become darker. And by darker, I mean thinking it would be easier not to live. So, yeah, not so positive. I think it’s because I’ve been feeling stuck. Stuck in an unfulfilling job. Financially unsafe. And knowing…

I’ve been feeling off. As if I’d lost my way on the healing path I’d found last year. My thoughts have become darker. And by darker I mean, thinking it would be easier not to live. So, yeah, not the most positive right now. Why am I having these thoughts…

I dropped the 4th dose 50 metres from the beach in Bahía Solano — on the pacific coast of Colombia. I walked barefoot across the dark, wet sand with my girlfriend.

This morning, something strange happened. I took the micro dose as usual, but this time I trained Jiu-Jitsu straight after. Thirty minutes into the session, the sensation hit me. It came on stronger than before. The energy in my body. The acidic burn in my chest. The lightness in my…

It’s a national holiday today in Colombia (don’t ask me what for — they have so many). The city is calm. No street vendors, cars, or chatter on the streets outside my window. It’s been 2 hours since I took the micro dose and I feel as calm as the…

My puppy, Richie, pawed at my arm. My phone showed 6:10am. The dog trainer would arrive in a few hours. I’ll have enough time to sort out Rich and start my psilocybin micro-dose with a mini ceremony, I thought. On my desk, overlooking the Medellín mountainside, I lit some copal…

Taita Pablo flicked my skin with leaves and spat liquid on my body. I’d just finished my second Ayahuasca ceremony. The hitting ‘n spitting is part of the cleansing ceremony. The leaves stung my bare skin. Like falling into a bush of stinging nettles. After the last flick, Taita Pablo…

Last year, I had some coaching sessions. We spent some time exploring my beliefs around money. In one exercise, I had to give money a character. I described money as a giant, black and red fire breathing dragon. It would fly around destroying families and gobbling up everything in sight…

The Nick of 7-ish months ago feels like a distant memory. Since my first psychedelic experience with psilocybin mushrooms, I’ve dug deep into my psyche Back then, I wrote about my apathy for life. My internal dialogue of what’s wrong with me? I felt bored with living most of the…